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which_chick ([personal profile] which_chick) wrote2025-06-24 07:58 am
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You ever see someone try to call their dog and their dog ain't listen?

That's what this reminds me of:



Like, it's exactly frustrated dog owner trying to summon Muffin when Muffin is not interested in being summoned. That's the whole fucking vibe.

LOL.
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which_chick ([personal profile] which_chick) wrote2025-06-23 02:40 pm

I hate this timeline.

First off, it's bloody hot and we've mowed the hay. Horse updates are tabled until it's not 95F out and the hay has been baled, with a brief side note that the HayChix hay bag has survived the first week of deployment. (Birb feels the holes in a haynet should be a lot bigger than they are and he generally makes his dreams a reality on that front, typically in about an hour.)

But because we're in a shit timeline, it's not about me discussing fun horse things or showing you the amazing bruise I incurred during a cherry-picking accident. (Actually picking cherries. In an orchard. This is not figurative speech.) Nope, it's about Bounties For Illegals, a key plank of my wildly over-the-top "platform" for rounding up illegals in a cost-effective and efficient manner.

Damn it, Enrique Tarrio, I WAS BEING SARCASTIC... But I see that you're not. Does the app send you a complimentary brown shirt when you sign up?
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pauraque ([personal profile] pauraque) wrote2025-06-23 12:56 pm

Stone Butch Blues by Leslie Feinberg (1993)

Flashing forward 75 years from The Autobiography of an Androgyne...

Stone Butch Blues is an autobiographical novel following Jess Goldberg, a queer working-class Jewish kid from upstate New York. It covers her 1950s childhood in which she is punished and rejected by her parents for not conforming to gender norms, her coming-of-age and finding a place as a butch in the lesbian community despite relentless police brutality, her decision to pursue medical transition, her partial detransition when she realizes she's neither a man nor a woman, her loves and losses, and her political awakening as a union organizer.

So, I came out as trans in the late 1990s, and two questions I soon grew to hate hearing were "Have you seen Boys Don't Cry?" and "Have you read Stone Butch Blues?" No, I hadn't, because I was already having a difficult time and I did not think I would find it helpful to consume media about people like me being raped and murdered, thanks. Well, I still haven't seen Boys Don't Cry (not planning to!) but now I have read Stone Butch Blues and I think I was right that reading it back then wouldn't have helped, except in that it would have given me more context for what some of the older people in the queer community had been through and why some of them treated me the way they did.

Cut for length and content: hate crimes (in the book) and in-community hostility towards nonbinary people (in my own life). This post is more about me than about the book. )

Stone Butch Blues is available for free on Feinberg's website.
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pauraque ([personal profile] pauraque) wrote2025-06-18 08:12 pm

The Autobiography of an Androgyne by Jennie June (1918)

"There are thousands of physical females who feel themselves to be men and have the mental traits of men, and there are thousands of physical males who feel themselves to be women and have the mental traits of a woman. Should any blame be attached to such individuals when they conduct themselves according to their psychical [i.e. mental] sex?"
This is a pseudonymous autobiography by an American writer sometimes known as Jennie June, and sometimes as Earl Lind, Raphael Werther, or Ralph Werther (none of which were legal names). It describes June's experiences as an AMAB person who felt like a woman, had relationships with men, and eventually had a gender-affirming orchiectomy. The book advocates for kindness towards queer and gender-nonconforming people (or at least the sorts June approved of) and the repeal of sodomy laws. It was published under the imprint of the New York Medico-Legal Journal and its sale was restricted to "members of the learned professions" as June had been unable to find a publisher who would market it to a general readership, so it's framed as a sort of self-narrated medical case study.

I haven't read a lot of queer books of this era and I probably won't make a habit of it, but this was an interesting look at what people were thinking and experiencing not all that long before modern Western conceptions of trans identity and gender transition started to take shape.

I'm going to use he/him pronouns for June because that's how he referred to himself in his writing.

Cut for length and content (hate crimes, sexual abuse and assault, suicide, period-typical social attitudes) )

The Autobiography of an Androgyne is in the public domain, so you can read it on Project Gutenberg or on the Internet Archive if you like.
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pauraque ([personal profile] pauraque) wrote2025-06-15 02:45 pm

Mighty Jill Off (2008)

Returning to Pride Month media, I played Mighty Jill Off by Anna Anthropy. If you're looking for a precision platformer made by a trans woman and you've already beaten Celeste, fear not, for this game also exists!

pixel girl in a gimp suit avoids spiky hazards

The setup is that Jill has to earn the right to lick her domme's boots by platforming her way up a creepy tower past various obstacles such as fire and spikes and deadly skull-spiders. The kinky content is only in the framing cutscenes, but it does make you spend the entire game thinking about the D/s dynamics between game developers and players, which I believe is the point. You keep hitting the spikes and dying, grr! But you keep trying again and again because you have to prove your worth, or maybe you just crave punishment. When you try to exit the game it asks if you really want to safeword. Good times.

The game is short—I didn't check the time, but I think I spent maybe an hour on it—and the platforming is not actually that hard. (Certainly not as hard as Celeste.) There are a lot of checkpoints. Make sure you note the controls before you start, though: pressing jump again in the air stops the jump early, and hitting the jump key repeatedly makes you slow-fall. You have to spam the key aggressively for long stretches to get through some parts, which can be physically uncomfortable, but again I am sure that's on purpose.

(I guess a lot of people learned of this game because Jill is an unlockable character in Super Meat Boy, which I have never played, but I'm told it's good. It's not currently on my wishlist, but maybe if one of the devs comes out as trans I'll consider it.)

Mighty Jill Off is free on itch.io. If you have trouble running it, check the comments there for compatibility tips!
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pauraque ([personal profile] pauraque) wrote2025-06-11 06:06 pm

demos from the Latin American Games Showcase (1/2)

I learned a few days ago that the Latin American Games Showcase is happening this week. This is very relevant to my interests, so I downloaded some demos. Too many demos, really, so I'm going to break my thoughts into two posts.

⭐ I want to play this.
❓ Maybe someday if it's on sale or if issues are fixed by release.
🚫 Not for me.

⚒️ Unreleased/early access.


⭐⚒️ Oscuro: Blossom's Glow (puzzle platformer - Hongoneon, Costa Rica )

⭐⚒️ PancitoMerge (Suika-like puzzle - Fáyer, Mexico )

I Did Not Buy This Ticket (surreal horror visual novel - Tiago Rech, Brazil )

Adore (creature-collecting ARPG - Cadabra Games, Brazil )

❓⚒️ Beacon of Neyda (tower defense - Ghost Creative Studio, Uruguay )

🚫 The End is Nahual (variety puzzles - Third World Productions, Mexico )

🚫 Alexandria IV (sci-fi visual novel - J.M. Beraldo, Brazil )

🚫 Dreamcore ('liminal space' walking sim - Montraluz, Argentina )